Thank you everybody. Just to clarify, I have 2 step daughters so have also written about them. But this was my only biological child. I never (or rarely) add the word "step" when talking about my step daughters so I'm sure it's a bit confusing.
Today was my first full day without my baby. I will miss her always. It will be a long time until the days get better but it will happen. I probably won't talk about it a lot longer.....even though I'm sure you folks wouldn't mind......
.....This is a place I want to come to be happy and not sad and Dukes always makes me happy....except when one of the stars dies. And my family here always makes me happy too. Still, I might mention it one or 2 times here just for therapy. It's comforting to know we love each other so much here.