NO!! You don't need to feel bad about anything!! We're here for you and if you write on here every day.....SO BE IT!! ( That might even help you and as friends/family/cousins...we will understand!) And YES!!! Life WILL be normal again! It will be a NEW normal! You know what your daughter would say and how she would want you to react! As I've said, you WILL heal....but there will always be a tender spot. If you need to talk pm me and we'll set up a phone meeting. We love you too!! ( you're a pretty good guy....I mean pretty good, considering you don't own a car lot or that you're not the town drunk! )