Sending hugs your way Roger. I am sorry you are going through this. Please know you gave her a great life and foundation for life and that she would want you to be happy and healthy. Please take care of yourself. I am here if he you ever want or need to chat. I am not good with words, but I'll be glad to listen.
Rough week around here. We just just commemorated my daughter's (would have been) 40th birthday and Monday will be the first anniversary of her death. It's tough because I feel like I can't win no matter what I do. If I think about it too much it hurts too much. If I don't think about I feel bad for not thinking about her. Life is all about finding the right balance I guess.