How long will I cry at bedtime because my Ruby dog is gone? She was only put down yesterday. It was my first night sleeping alone crying. But I found a way to keep her with me. It might sound stupid to some people. Her leash not the one she went outside for potty on, but her bedtime one that made her stay with me all these 14 1/2 years of her life from jumping down to pee or poop in the house at night time, I held it last night. I only meant to hold the metal part of it the chain link part, and the whole thing came untied off the bed post. So I held onto the pink cloth part, stretching the metal out beside me as if she was still there. It takes up the same length that she did from where her head and tail would have been, or tail to head when she was facing me backwards butt first. When I rolled onto my back and left side, I left the whole leash stretched out beside and behind me. Until I fell asleep, I would sometimes rub the metal and then pat it just like how I rubbed and patted her.