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I want to apologize for my swearing, I tried to censor myself best I could, but you can only be so polite when angry. I would also like to apologize for dumping all of this on you without posting much, I just wasn't sure where else to post it, people don't really interact with me much anywhere else And I want to thank all of you for your kind words. I understand that not much can help in a random forum I found, but sometimes just seeing a reply notification can help loads

Okay I need to vent for a minute or two Homeschooling is all fun and games until you graduate early and can't get a job because nobody wants to hire a 17 year old, or nobody needs workers cause it's a small town and you can't drive anywhere because your parents never take you out so you're probably not gonna pass your drivers test and even if you do, you probably still cant go out because you dont have your own car and your dad uses the shared car to do doordash because he also cant get a job and your mom's car is off limits so you get stuck at home anyways. Oh and then you also have no friends because you f***ing dropped out AND moved across the country so you didnt go to school to meet new people, and people online don't wanna talk to you either so you either spam discord servers with no response or just stop talking and posting at all sending you further into the no interaction hole All of this causing you to just stay in your room for months on end, only having human interaction at dinner time and every other weekend when your brother comes over, but they're all still too focused on the baby for it to even matter that you're there at all so you just end up going back to your room which gives you KILLER depression and now everything that you used to love is just boring. I don't wanna play my favorite video games because I have no friends to play them with. I don't want to draw or craft because it takes too much commitment to finish. I don't wanna watch movies because they take too long. Even talking to my boyfriend has gotten boring. And you can't talk to any adults about it because they always say you have "just not be depressed". My mom told me that moving to the living room would probably help a lot, and when I told her that I don't like being out there so I would just end up back in my room she said "Well you just have to do it" or when I express my fears about calling companys for a job she said "well you just have to do it" and I don't know if she's noticed, but i'm autistic, so my brain doesnt allow me to "just do things" I need a structured plan of action and support. So really the only people you can talk to is people your age, but oh guess what??? You don't have any friends, so then you turn to people online, but oh guess what??? NOBODY F*CKING RESPONDS. You have 132 followers on Twitter, but only 1-2 people ever like, nobody but your boyfriend comments, and you're starting to get really pissed at every notification ever being your boyfriend because just once I'd like it to be somebody else. Just once, you'd like to talk to somebody who isn't him. But that's not gonna happen cause no matter how much you post or comment or talk, barely anybody ever responds And the things you like are either so niche or so old that people your age don't even know about them. So even if I was to find a space online for it, it'd either be dead or full of old people (no offence). OR BOTH! And you can't find real people because the one guy I found, ghosted me. My mom found some girl on facebook needed friends, didnt even text me back. GUYS Just once I'd like to find somebody who wants to actually be my friend and isn't online every 5-7 business days and doesn't treat me as the side friend that they only go to when their main friends are offline. Just once I'd like for my parents to actually worry about MY life and teach me independency and take my autism seriously. I once was talking about how I go nonverbal and dont talk and how that could be a problem at a job and my mom said "you talk about it like its a disabilty"....IT IS????? And actually take me places that arent for a reason. Like driving only because I need to learn or taking me out grocery shopping just to get out of the house. Why not taking me to the Antique store. Just cause. Or the nearby tiger sanctuary, just cause you want to spend time with me. It's always "you need to get out of the house" but then never getting me out of the house and when they do its rarely something I enjoy.

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I cannot and will not be shamed, I am proud of my weird autism

I cannot and will not be shamed, I am proud of my weird autism

I HATE VIN DIESEL HES SO SCARYYY i had nightmares about him when I was 12.....only watched the movie for Cole (I f***ING LOVE COLE HAUSER RAHHHHH) but they did him so dirty💔💔💔

I play this, it has Online and Story mode, and story mode takes place in 1899 and is about an outlaw gang at the end of the wild west trying to navigate the new world and its SAD. I've watched grown men cry over it. Online mode takes place a few years before story mode starts, and it also has Red Dead Redemption 1 which takes place in the early 1900s but I dont have that yet I've also recently started playing this older PS1 (?) game on my laptop called Chronicles of Riddick: Escape from Butcher Bay. I downloaded it cause Cole Hauser was in it (love that guy), BUT HE WAS ONLY IN THE FIRST SCENE, I'm so upset. It's based on a movie called "Pitch Black" from 2000(?) and I think there's a sequel but Cole isn't in it, so I don't care to watch it Oh and sometimes I play a Harry Potter game but thats only if my bf is online and we're both bored of RDO and He wants me to play Fortnite so I might give it a try

that could be somewhat right though as a headcanon. In the game theres different roles you can do, and His is trader, will the animal processing, but he is great friends with the Moonshiner lady (i think he likes her) so who's to say hes not in on the moonshining action

I play Red Dead Online almost everyday, and there this NPC that takes care of your camp when you're gone named Cripps and you can buy different outfits for him and he reminded me of a sassier Uncle Jesse so I bought him overalls

i just want a bunny :(( and a car....and trinket money.....

My grandparents on my stepdads side LOVE this show and I love about an hour (?) away from Mayberry and IT IS SO CUTE OMGGG. The museum is real small and it's a pretty boring place if you aren't a shopper (unfortunately), but it's SOO pretty and I got free stickers of the sherriff badges. I think I took some photos when I was there but I'd have to ask my mom for them, my phone died halfway through the car ride And there's also a shop cat in my local town named Barney and I love him

okay so, some time before we moved last year, my mom said I could get a pet rabbit, on two conditions, 1: I actually took care of it and 2: that I had a job and she bought me the rabbit hutch last year for christmas and I have all the supplies and everything I need EXCEPT THE JOB and its not for lack of trying either, I've applied to literally everywhere and its a "oh sorry you need to be 18" or a "sorry we're not hiring" and not even the online places wanna hire me. I got denied a job because I didn't have a driver's license (im still on permit) because they were worried about my commute.....IT WAS A REMOTE JOB FROM GERMANY I......I just want a bunny..... why is the job market so EVILLLLL

Fell asleep before I could even get my ipad out😔😔

I moved around a lot, so I don't really know what to consider my hometown, but it was mostly desert suburbs, so no way does it have the same feel. But where I live now, maybe it isn't "modern" day Hazzard, but more early Hazzard in the episode where they were in the wild west (I can't remember the name), it's a well-preserved, 1 road, old gold rush mining town with wooden sidewalks and a general store and even ghost stories. it's only really open on the weekends, and we never go (much to my dismay, cause it's so cute I love it here) and always make sure to wear my boots cause I LOVE the sound of my heels on the wood. The bigger town to our right is more "modern" Hazzard, with the brick buildings and painted glass storefronts.

Happy Halloween guys!! unfortunately, I come from a family who don't celebrate things much outside Christmas so I'm not doing anything, but my mom bought me some candy last week (which is already almost gone) and I have a cool halloween outfit on Red Dead Redemption Online! Might brave up and watch some horror movies tonight...not sure