DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Author Report Posted October 16, 2008 Luke grappled for Bo, wrapping his arms desperately around him. He wasn't prepared for this. He could hardly stay upright...without Bo he probably would have fallen onto the floor. Now he just clung to his baby cousin, crying his heart out for the surrogate daddy he had lost. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Report Posted October 16, 2008 Bo just held him, tears dripping down his own cheeks silently as he heard Luke grieve properly for the man they had lost. Luke was finally letting those emotions go... Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Author Report Posted October 16, 2008 Soon, the sobs died down into soft weeping. Luke still had his face buried against Bo's shoulder, his hand buried in his brother's blond curls, drawing from them what comfort he could. His knees felt weak, but he didn't move, not willing to go anywhere without Bo. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Report Posted October 16, 2008 Carefully and quietly, Bo lead Luke to their room to sit down on one of the beds, knowing by the way Luke was leaning on him that Luke wouldn't be able to stand on his own. Sitting on the bed, he continued to just hold his cousin close as he grieved. Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Author Report Posted October 16, 2008 Luke hung on shakily, blinking his wet eyes. "I...I just...I...miss him...so...so...so..." he started to say, his words ending in chokes. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Report Posted October 16, 2008 "I know...I do too..."Bo admitted softly though he'd been trying to distance himself from that feeling. Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 16, 2008 Author Report Posted October 16, 2008 Luke pulled away from Bo, looking down at his lap before letting his head lean on Bo's shoulder, slow tears dripping down his face as he clenched his hands in front of him. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 17, 2008 Report Posted October 17, 2008 Bo kept a comforting arm around his older cousins shoulders, not missing how the two had seemed to have swapped places. When the time came that Jesse passed on, as was inevitable in life...Bo had always imagined that it would be he who had the emotional breakdown, who missed him so much he couldn't stop crying...not Luke. He knew Luke would grieve eventually but never had Bo imagine that this would have happened. Of course Bo hadn't really grieved yet at all...he hadn't had the time. Daisy had, and Bo had been there to comfort her, Luke was now and had been probably with Sara and Bo had been there for him...as for himself, he did what Luke always had...got on with the work that needed doing and distanced himself from his emotions that once used to show so freely. It was like some kind of clash had happened where suddenly Bo and Luke's personalities had been reversed and everything had turned upside down.Rubbing Luke's arm gently, he just quietly soothed his older cousin as much as he could. Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 17, 2008 Author Report Posted October 17, 2008 Luke leaned his head against Bo, weeping more as he felt Bo's hand across his arm. "How...how can we..." he choked back a sob, looking down at his lap.He didn't know how things could ever feel right again. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 17, 2008 Report Posted October 17, 2008 "We can't go back t'how things used t'be Luke...its not possible and besides...Uncle Jesse wouldn't want that. He left us wanting us to create a future for ourselves...no matter where that took us within reason o'course...he raised us and guided us down the paths we're on...but he always said that eventually we'd have t'walk the paths without him...he wouldn't want us to sit and miss him all the time...he wants us to keep on keepin on...somehow..."Bo said softly, not really thinking about what he was saying, just saying what came to his heart. Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 17, 2008 Author Report Posted October 17, 2008 "Somehow," whispred Luke. The trouble was that he didn't know how to do that. The familiar feeling of letting everyone down started to sweep over him. he felt he should know...that he should be able to be strong for everyone...but it had all gotten too much somehow...and he felt that he didn't know anything anymore. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Report Posted October 18, 2008 "We'll figure it out together...we always do...Daisy's managed t'find that place already...the place where she can enjoy Uncle Jesse's memory instead of weep over him..she's doing what he would have wanted her to do. She's out enjoying herself...having fun...looking to the future to see what she can make of it...you know she wants to go to college?"Bo said with a small smile, admiring Daisy much more than he had ever done before. Out of all of them, she had worked through her grief in a sensible manner and come out on top rather than in the rutt Bo and especially Luke seemed to be in. Bo didn't understand how that was possible either...he hadn't expected Daisy to take this so well, but then again her and Uncle Jesse had always talked...Bo and Luke had usually been too busy running around to go into the depth of conversation that Daisy and Jesse often had done. In a way, Daisy had more of her Uncle's words to remember, more conversations to go by that would help her through. Bo had the farm, while Luke was gone he took it over and felt connected with his Uncle that way which helped a little ways...but Luke had gone off the deep end and as a result had nothing really... Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Author Report Posted October 18, 2008 Luke nodded, wiping his eyes, drawing a quivering breath, but managing to look at the chair and not break down this time. "M'sorry...just...seein it there...empty an' all..." Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Report Posted October 18, 2008 Bo glanced out the doorway to the bedroom too as Luke did, nodding a little."Its ok, I understand...hit me hard when I first saw it too..." Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Author Report Posted October 18, 2008 Luke nodded a little. "I guess...we best...do chores..or...somethin'?" he asked. He wasn't sure how different things had been since Bo took over. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Report Posted October 18, 2008 Bo shook his head a little."They dont need doin' till t'night...got them all done this mornin 'fore I came t'see you..." Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Author Report Posted October 18, 2008 Luke nodded. "So...so what...what can I do?" He wasn't used to having time to do nothing. Of course, he was used to being asleep about this time, indicative by the yawn that escaped him. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Report Posted October 18, 2008 Bo smiled a little as he yawned."Look, why not just take some time to settle back into a routine...you got one for when you were at the hospital..just stick to that for a bit then gradually change it.." Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Author Report Posted October 18, 2008 Luke nodded a little, feeling more and more tired. Still, he felt a little bad about it. "You've done everything...on yer own for so long though..." Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Report Posted October 18, 2008 Bo shrugged."I's used t'it then aint I...you need t'settle inta a routine Luke, you cant just jump straight back inta everythin...that's what Sara told me..." Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 18, 2008 Author Report Posted October 18, 2008 "I hate t leave you with everything...looking after me like...like a baby," he scowled. Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 19, 2008 Report Posted October 19, 2008 "Your not a baby cousin...you've had a hard time...everyone needs t'be taken care of sometime in their lives...you've looked after me all my life, now its my turn to return the favour just a little. I'll help you through this...cause its what Uncle Jesse would have wanted us to do, to stick together as a family, and because your my brother and I love you..."Bo said softly, squeezeing Luke's shoulder supportivly. Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 19, 2008 Author Report Posted October 19, 2008 Luke looked at Bo as he said those final words. It had always amazed him how Bo could speak from his heart like that. Luke never had been able to, or at least, that was what he told himself. Bo was the only one who came close to ever hearing true sentiment in words from Luke-he was more a person of action, He didn't talk about things, he just did them, and most people close to him understood his silent language.Now though, Luke found himself wishing he wasn't so closed up, wishing he could say to Bo exactly what he felt about him. It was true he had been getting better at it, thanks to Sara, but he had a long way to go before he would ever be like Bo. He supposed a lot of it had to do with the tremendous fear of rejection he had always had. Sara had been the one to lable it that and at first, Luke had laughed at her. Luke Duke had been the one to always have a date on Saturday Night...he wasn't afraid of asking anyone out... but of course Sara reminded him of the fact that for every no hehad received, there had been four times as many yesses. Luke wasn't generally rejected among girls...Luke would leave them first...or find a way for them to leave before he got hurt. His mind continued racing with these thoughts, mentally telling himself that maybe Sara would want to know what he was thinking, as he went into their room. Quote
DaisyMaeDuke Posted October 19, 2008 Author Report Posted October 19, 2008 (whoops...my bad...he was already in the room) Quote
BoJamesDuke Posted October 19, 2008 Report Posted October 19, 2008 Smiling with a final pat on the shoulder, Bo got up from the bed and started heading out the room."You get some rest cousin..." Quote
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