BoJamesDuke

Daisy looked worridly back at B.L and immidiatly bolted from her sitting position on the bed to the lounge, seeing an angry and obviously very upset Luke. She hesitantly walked forward and placed a hand on his shoulder. "L....Luke? Sugar what's.....what's happened?" Bo finally made it to the barn, turning as he heard the loud slam of the door to the farm house. He breathed a deep breath in and let it out in a sigh, stepping inside the barn.

Bo cowered slightly underneath Uncle Jesse's burning gaze, although his expression never changed, a mix of fear, determination and desperation for someone to understand. He had apologized to Luke for yelling at him, and Luke had already said it was alright, that all he had needed was to vent to make him feel better. He looked over to Luke as he sat forward, head in hands and sighing softly. Bo shook his head and got to his feet. "Well thanks ever so much for your support Lukas." He turned and started making his way slowly to the barn, leaning on as little as he could, seeing how far he could get without leaning on something, knowing that after this he would more than likely have to be carried from the barn back to the house.

"You know what! I don't act like I feel guilty 'bout it cause now I think about it I AIN'T! WHy should I be guilty fer doin' somethin' that has benifited me? Why should I feel guilty for speedin' my recovery up a little more? Why should I feel guilty for tryin' to get my life back on track!" Bo breathed heavily, his bottom lip quivering slightly, jaw clenched. His head told him that he was right to do this, that he was right to stand up for himself which caused the tightness in his jaw....but his heart told him otherwise, his heart told him that he had lost control again, that he had just comepltly ignored Jesse's understanding of the situation and had thrown his chance of making things better between them away. That was what made his bottom lip quiver and his eyes sting with angry tears.

Bo's jaw clenched and his muscles tensed as Jesse made him look at him and started telling him what was in his head. Jesse didn't understand at all, Jesse didn't have a clue as to what Bo was feeling so what gave him the right to presume to tell him he did?! He jerked his chin sharply away from Jesse's finger. "I couldn't control it then! That was the...first time that it happened! It scared the heck outta me and I felt....downright guilty afterwards! How could I control somethin' that....I didn't even realize was there?!"

Bo shrugged and looked down at the ground, resting his head on his older cousin's shoulder. He knew what he wanted to happen, he wanted Uncle Jesse to just understand that he didn't have any control over what happened when he was in a state like that...but somehow he doesn't think that Jesse believed that.

Bo nodded, leaning slightly more into Luke. "Don't matter whether.....its a good idea or not.....it has ta be done....I can't go gettin' angry at Rosco or Enos....and landin' in Jail forcin' ya to pay Bail...."

Bo nodded and swallowed gently, feeling anger welling up again but keeping himself calm as his hands balled into fists, digging his fingernails hard into his palms. "I know Uncle Jesse....that's why I's....I's decided I ain't leavin' the farm....no matter what. I ain't goin' inta town or nothin'.....I's gonna stay here until this thing is sorted."

Bo felt it flare up again as Jesse told him to mind him and he evry nearly literally kicked himself for it. He hated this, he hated feeling angry at the slightest order and he knew Uncle Jesse probably wouldn't like what was coming next. "I can't mind ya Uncle Jesse.....no matter who it is or what they're tellin' me...I just can't keep a hold of it....if it's somethin' that goes against what....I want ta do or tells me what I should be doin'....that's when it gets the worst and it just....takes over.....I don't know what it is.....I just can't control it when it....gets that bad...." Bo was thankful for the comforting support on his back and leant into it a little more as he finished.

Bo sighed and fought hard to keep his temper in check as Uncle Jesse told him what to do. "I....I don't know Uncle Jesse....it's hard to explain....." He felt himself calming and carried on. "When someone orders me to do somethin'....that i don't wanna do....somethin' insida me just.....just snaps and....I just get angry and defiant."

Bo nodded and held out his arm for Luke, so that his older cousin could gently support him although he knew that Luke wouldn't help any more than Bo wanted him to. Eventually they reached the picnic table and Bo lowered himself gently onto the seat and leaned against the table, elbows up behind him resing on it, looking down at his lap, waiting for his Uncle to talk first.

Bo drew in a sharp intake of breath and let it out slowly, swallowing. "Yes sir....can I sit down though....my legs ain't up ta standin' fer ages yet...."

Bo looks away from Luke as Uncle Jesse speaks to him, smiling and nodding slightly "Much better this mornin' Uncle Jesse.....I's can say more without pausin' for breath....and I dressed myself...."

Bo grimaced and ran his hand down his face as he now realised his mistake. He hadn't meant to curse like that, it just slipped, another one of those 'whoops I should have thought before I spoke' times. "Yeah....oh I hope he didn't hear me say that...."

lol yeah me too. I cant imagine Bo really hating kids, its not possible.

Yeah I rekon he was joking.

No idea....I think he may have been joking though. He does laugh afterwards.

As B.L surprises them, Bo practically leaps backwards into Luke's arms, trembling with shock and fright before relaxing slightly. "Christ....B.L you scared the heck outta me....

He said it in One Armed Bandits. The rudy kid is squirtin flies in the back of the General Lee, he laughs at first and then turns to Jill and goes 'I hate kids.'

Bo grinned and nodded, his eyes sparking with glee. "I thought you'd never ask!"

Bo grinned and pushed himself gently to his feet, picking up half of the stack of plates, realising thats all he could probably manage and starts to put them away gently, resting them on the side and doing them one by one, not having the strength to lift them all onto the pile in the cupboard at once.

Bo sighed as he was forced to sit back down, fully intent on yelling at Luke. But he fights it back down, he knew Luke said he could handle it but Bo knew that it hurt him everytime it happened. So, as he waited for Luke to pass him a plate to dry, he stared at a blank spot on the wall, keeping his mind focused on everything but what had just happened. He took the plate and carefully dried it, automatically nearly standing up to put it away. But he quickly realised his mistake and stacked the plate on the end of the table, not moving from his seat, waiting for the next plate.

Daisy nodded and smiled thankfully at B.l, gesturing that they had better get back to the chores before Uncle Jesse came round and gave them a switching. Bo reached up with one hand to grasp Luke's while it rested on his shoulder, leaning his cheek on it in thanks before turning round in the seat and using the table and back of the chair to help him stand up. "I'll help ya with the dishes."

Hey, Me and B.L Davenport are writing one in the Round Robin section of this where Bo gets sick if you would like to read that one. Its called Double Duke Trouble

Bo sighed,defeated. Luke didn't understand, he didn't think he would. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't stop it....he just prayed that when the time came to have it out with Uncle Jesse that he managed to keep his emotions under control. "Yeah...sure Luke...." Daisy bit her bottom lip gently. She knew that Uncle Jesse was planning on giving Bo a switching...at least he had been yesterday. But would he go that far as to throw him out of the house? After all that had happened Daisy couldn't see him doing it...but then again when Jesse was in a rage she wasn't quite sure what he was capable of. She looked worridly over to B.L, saying nothing.

Daisy smiled at B.L and tilted her head towards the door, showing her she was listening to Bo and Luke, moving over slightly so she could see. Bo sighed and looked back to Luke, a confused look in his own eyes. "But Luke that's just it....I can't stop myself blowin' off at people and resisitin what they's tellin' me...there's somethin' inside a me that just...just takes over and it don't matter who it is....it just happens! What if Uncle Jesse does decide to switch me and tell me.....to go out to the barn and I say No? What if....what if he throws me out Luke...."