BoJamesDuke

Bo shook his head and made Lori look to him again. "Lori you ain't got bad luck with men, you just act wrong around them...look at yerself now...your acting all pathetic and moping around...you wouldn't catch Daisy actin' like this in a million years...and neither would you find her storming around screaming and crying at people either...your an attratctive girl Lori...there ain't nothin unattractive about ya except the lack of self esteem and self confidence..."

Bo let out a deep breath, dipping his head to look at the floor before turning in his seat and taking Lori's hand gently. "Lori...love ain't somethin' that just comes naturally and just springs up between two people...its somethin' you gotta work on and if both of the people in the relationship arn't willing to work on it, then yeah its gonna come crashin' down an' yer gonna get hurt...but that's what bein' in love is about Lori...its how life is...you can't have anything that doesn't come with pain of some sort...if you stay clinging to your fear the rest of your life...your gonna end up miserable and alone..."

Bo groaned and rubbed his hands down his face. "Oh for pete's sake...Lori don't you be like this too....please..."

Jesse placed a hand gently on his shoulder and looked Luke in the eyes. "Because it showed me that no matter how much influence I had over ya...you would never forget I'm just your Uncle...that you would always remember you had a father who loved ya, who wanted nothin' more than to raise ya an' see ya grow....I can't ever get that from Bo...he doesn't remember a thing about his parents...your Aunt and I are all of a parental figure he does remember....and it saddens me that Bo cannot even grieve over them because of it..."

Jesse sighed "Luke you was only 12 years old at the time...you'd had a bad day an' I said some things that sparked off yer temper...you came apologisin right afterwards...and that night you was tucked up in your bed with me readin' ya a story like always...I know you never meant to hurt me...and truth is, i'm glad ya said it..."

Jesse shook his head, rubbing Luke's back some more with a soft smile. "Now don't you worry about it Luke....while it hurt to hear ya say it...the fact of the matter is its true...I am just a guy who adopted ya inta mine and yer aun't family...but the point is no matter what, i'll still protect ya like you were my own and I love ya like you were my own...and I also know that you never meant a word of it back then....you just had a mighty mean temper that could have riveled the one Bo has nowadays...you said things without thinkin' about em...especially when I pushed ya an' challeneged ya..."

Jesse smiled softly and looked to him, tilting his chin up softly. "You did when you was younger...."

Jesse sighed and sat down on a hay bale with him, holding him close and rubbing his arm softly. "Luke...if you's sayin' that then you might as well say the same about me too..."

Jesse nodded softly, hearing the emotion and practically feeling the tears that were filling Luke's blue eyes. "I know Luke...and its probably because when ya have a child to look after...you look to your father to give you guidence on how to be a good one...there's a bond there that ain't broken by anythin an' its almost a tradition of the human nature to want to do it...I don't blame ya for wantin' that Luke and I wish that I could give it to ya..."

Bo sighed and looked to her "Lori no matter what mistakes we's made in life everyone deserves to be happy..."

Jesse sighed softly and continued the motions, starting to rock Luke in his arms gently. "I know...what you want right now Luke...what you're wishing for...and i'm sorry that I can't and haven't ever been able to give that to ya...but all I can try and do is support ya and love ya with all my heart...you'll always have that from me Luke...always..."

Jesse led him all the way to the barn, stopping him when they were safely inside and turning him round. He didn't however start up the lectures or sit Luke down and demand to know what was running through his head, he instead just pulled Luke into his arms and hugged him softly, running a hand through his dark curls and rubbing his back softly.

Jesse sighed as he watched Bo slink indoors and head to his room, seeing that for once Bo didn't want to be with anyone...he wanted to be left alone. Shaking his head, he went outside and saw Luke walking away. Without a word, he walked up to Luke, gripped his shoulders and turned him around, keeping the grip on his shoulders as he marched Luke to the barn.

Bo, for the first time in his life when Luke had wanted to confide something in him, found himself walking away. He had always known that to a degree Luke and Daisy could remember their parents and when he was little, sometimes he heard them talking when they thought he was asleep about them. He didn't know his, had no memory of them. All he had was Uncle Jesse and Aunt Lavinia and while they had been the perfect substitutes...that's all they were....substitutes...he would never have the memories that Daisy and Luke had...would never remember getting a hug or a kiss goodnight from his mom and dad...and that was why he didn't like to hear Luke talk about how much he missed it. He wanted to desperatly to just turn around and tell Luke how pathetic he was being about it, how at least he had that to remember them by, at least he could remember experiencing that...Bo only had proof his parents had loved, kissed him..actually existed as his parents through photgraphs - old ones at that. But he couldn't say that to Luke...partly because he didn't have the guts to reveal his feelings about that...but also because he didn't want to hurt Luke's feelings like that.

Bo nodded a little and went to stand up. "Well then I don't recon you wanna be talkin' to me...I won't have a clue what you's talkin ' about..." And truth be told he didn't want to hear that either though he would never ever admit that to Luke.

Bo sighed and looked down "So you regret bein' here then?"

Bo swallowed a little. "You did?"

Bo frowned a little, shaking his head. "Then what is it like..."

Bo chuckled a little and shook his head "Lori you keep thinkin' like that an' you ain't never gonna be happy....truth is the reason it didn't work out with you and Luke is because you's too much of a friend to us...we've known ya for so long...it would be like datin' his sister an' that's how I'd feel too..."

Bo sighed and tilted Luke's head up. "Luke...you may not have had someone to call Daddy...but you had Uncle Jesse...and he was a good a role model as anyone..."

Bo grinned and looked to her. "Now I thought all the fun of secret admirers was to try and find out who it was yerself.."

Bo sighed and sat down next to him. "Luke...she tried to come right out after ya to tell ya she didn't mean it but Daisy stopped her...she loves ya Luke an' if the social services didn't think you were gonna be a good daddy they wouldn't have let ya adopt her would they? And Jaime sure has heck wouldn't have stayed this long..."

Bo leaned back in his chair and folded his hands behind his head, stretching his long legs out in front of him. "Well I heard from Sara...that her friend has a real cute brother who thinks your pretty cute..."

Bo swallowed and shook his head. "Luke she didn't mean that..."

Bo groaned and ran across the yard, grabbing Luke by the shoulders and stopping him, standing in front of him. "You know I oughta give ya a slap for that...you know I hate runnin', it makes me look like a duck.."