B.L. Davenport Posted June 28, 2006 Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 Biting his lip Luke found himself wishing it would all end one way or another Bo couldn't take anymore and the dull look in his eyes over the feeding tube instead of the fire that would have normally been there crushed Luke's heart. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 The silence in the room was over whelming, although Bo made no movement to show any emotion whatsoever. he just lay in his bed, watching the sunbeams that were rapidly turning darker as the sun set to allow evening to pass its time, his mind just turning blanker until he really was just staring pointlessly at a spot. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 28, 2006 Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 Doc leaves the room,leaving Bo and Luke alone hoping Luke could pull Bo back from wherever it was he was slipping the blank stare worried him greatly.Once the Doc is gone Luke stretches himself out on the bed next to Bo just holding him close. He could feel Bo slipping away but not physically as in dying but into his own private world."Bo ya ok?......talk ta me cuz"worried trying to keep his voice steady Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 But Bo made no move to show he had either heard Luke speak nor felt Luke move. His eyes remained focused on one point, soft blinking the only movement they made, the rise and fall of his chest accompnaying it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 28, 2006 Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 "Bo please don't pull away 'n shut me out cousin......talk ta me what's goin' through that head of yours it's got ta be a million different things"Luke pleads but not really holding much hope that Bo would respond this time either. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 There was nothing going through his head though....it was just an empty void that was meaningless...nothing had any meaning anymore. He was living because he was forced to, take away the medicine and the feeding tube and he was dead...Take away that and he was....dead.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 28, 2006 Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 Lays an arm across his eyes the silence was scaring the living daylights out of him. At least if Bo was ranting there was no question about what he might be thinking or planning to do. The silence was just about the most unnerving thing Luke had ever experienced. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 Bo turned his head to look down at his left hand....the Iv tube running out the back of it....slowly he reached over and took it between his fingers and gently started to pull it from the back. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Luke feels Bo move but doesn't bother to look and see why figuring he was just shifting to be more comfortable. Caught up in his own thoughts of what was going on and trying to get his head around it all and cope without completely losing his mind. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 With a slight whimper he didn't even realise had escaped, he slid it out a little faster, now having got up to so half the needle was out the back of his skin. He was almost there....as soon as he had this out it wouldn't matter if he had a feeding tube or not, the malaria would soon overtake him and he could be free of everything. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Hears Bo whimper quickly sits up propped on one elbow his fear and worry coming out as anger yelling "What the heck are ya doin' Bo ya'll die without that" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Bo didn't answer, only contiiued to watch as the needle slid further and further out the back of his hand.Daisy, who had heard Luke yell, looked up quickly at the doc seated opposite before bolting for the room, the Doc not too far behind Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Doc rushes into the room gently but firmly making Luke move."Doc he took it out put it back he'll die without it"Luke's voice is starting to rise in pitch with his hysteria at what Bo has done."Luke calm down *doc orders sharply then seeing Luke make the effort, explains* I can't make him continue with the treatment Luke he's an adult and has the right to make that decision himself."Luke shakes his head frantically still borderline hysterical"No he don't......Daisy get Uncle Jesse in here he'll make Bo stop" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Daisy's heart broke at what Luke was saying, the way Bo was now they could keep putting the needle back in but he would keep on taking it back out...there was nothing they could do now...Bo really had made up his mind."Luke....we can't....we can't Luke this is his choice..." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Luke continues to shake his head and argue that Jesse could make Bo leave the needle alone. Getting nowhere though he bolted from the room and out the front door looking around the yard with wild eyes looking for somewhere he could go this couldn't be happening they couldn't just let Bo purposely do something that would kill him sooner than he was already going to die. Doc sighs he was afraid of this being Luke's reaction but had expected it to come after Bo's death. "Alright Bo....I can take the feedin' tube out or leave it in.......but before ya tell me to take it out ya got to promise you'll try and eat more I ain't gonna let yer Uncle Jesse and cousin's watch you starve yourself to death." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Bo just closed his eyes and shook his head. It didn't matter none about the feeding tube now, now that the medicine had gone it was only a matter of time before the virus consumed him. he would rather have the tube in, tham be forced to eat more when he was just too weak to do so.Daisy tried to grab Luke as he ran past but found it pointless, she couldn't stop him now...Jesse stepped out of the barn when he heard frantic breathing and heavy footsteps. He called out when he saw Luke"Luke? What in tarnation is going on?" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Luke points back at the house breathing hard short gasps as tears slip down his face babbling not making coherent sentences."B.....Bo......he.....IV...die.......sooner....make 'im......in..........gonna die.....don't want die.........not yet...can't"sinks to his knees sobbing uncontrollably before retching violently Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Jesse rushed forward and gently supported Luke as best he could...this was like seeing Bo all over again."Luke....Luke ya have to calm down and explain this ta me properly...."Daisy crossed to the bed and gently sat next to Bo, crying gently as she held his hand and smoothed the yellowed skin on the back. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Luke wipes his mouth when there's nothing left to throw up. Shaking from the effort takes several deep breaths calming enough to tell Jesse more coherently what's happening."Bo....took out.......the IV he'll......d...die *barely gets the word out*...sooner without the medicine.....even.....w....with...the feedin' tube........Ya gotta.....ya gotta....m.....mmake 'im let Doc put it back.......needs it to live.......can't lose him.....not yet.....can't......not ready......please Uncle Jesse make him let Doc put it back in and leave it alone."Pleads between sobs as the tears keep cascading down his face.Doc looks out the window worriedly at Luke but sees Jesse has him so at least he hadn't gone too far. Looking back at Daisy and Bo made him want to give up being a doctor this was part of the job he hated. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Jesse sighed and closed his eyes, pulling Luke closer. This was the hardest thing he had ever had to do..."Luke....now you know I want Bo better as much as you do....but boy....it is creul to keep Bo livin' as he is when its clear that he don't want to no more and that its hurtin' him ta do so...."He felt Luke shudder in his arms, and he knew that Luke knew this already. It was just a matter of getting through the grief in Luke's head and pointing him to the best course of action."Lukas....I cannot go against what Bo wants, not now. I don't want him to pass on....but he'll be in a better condition if he does and Bo knows this now...otherwise he would have tried to take out the IV beforehand...he's held on for as long as he can Luke, but now he just feels its time to go....you have to accept his decsion and I know it's hard....my ol' heart is breakin' slow inside here too...but we HAVE to Luke, sometimes you just have to let them make this decsion..."Bo looked over at Daisy and shook his head slightly with a small smile, reaching up to wipe the tears away.Daisy sniffed and smiled gently back at him, running her fingers through his golden blonde hair."Oh Bo...I wish it didn't have to be this way....we're gonna miss you so much hunny, but you know what you're doing and....Bo....I'll let you go....I just want ya to know that i'll always love you and I'll always miss you....but I can see why....why....doing what you are...."Bo nodded softly and smiled his thanks, still too scared of talking after the last time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Luke listened to Jesse still crying hard but no longer hysterical in the comfort of his Uncle arms. He knew what Uncle Jesse was saying it was cruel to make Bo live as he had been but he wasn't sure he could let go but for Bo's sake he'd try. Pulling away slightly he looked up at Uncle Jesse eyes fearful and swollen from crying so much but still steadily leaking tears. "I........understand all that Uncle Jesse,in here anyway *points to his head* but here *points to his heart*....is havin' a hard time exceptin' it. Gotta tell Bo it's ok or he'll hang on stubbornly like all us Dukes"Doc checked out the window again feeling a little better at seeing Luke sitting up on his own and appearing at least calmer although you could still see the hard shaking of his shoulders even from that distance as he tried to come to terms with what was happening. Turning back to Bo and Daisy he wondered if he was making the right decision leaving the feeding tube in,but he didn't know how much longer Bo could hang on with or without nourishment,he wasn't prepared to let Bo starve if he lived for days. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Jesse nodded and hugged Luke tighter."I know.... I know...and I hate to say it but....its true....I think Bo really is waiting for your acceptance before he....moves on....he loves ya Luke and if you asked him to hard enough he would hang on for as long as he could....but you can't ask him to do that Luke....it isn't fair to ask him to keep holding on...."Daisy pulled Bo's head and shoulder's into her lap gently and cradaled him softly, wondering how much longer she would be able to do this for....how much longer her little cousin had left before he vanished from their lives for good... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Luke nods again sniffing and wiping away the tears mentally preparing himself for the hardest thing he's ever had to do. Standing up shakily,shoulders slumped in a defeated way."I think I'm ok ta talk to Bo now,he weren't none to happy about that feedin' tube it scared him he's afraid to talk afraid it'll hurt like before with the breathin' tube I saw it in his eyes."trudges slowly back to the porch stopping with his hand on the screen door gathering all the courage he had for what the conversation he was about to have with his youngest cousin probably be their last. Going inside Luke moved slowly down the hall almost creeping into the room having to bite his lip to keep from crying as he saw Daisy craddling Bo's head and shoulders in her lap. He stood there just watching them for now,Daisy needed time with Bo just as much as he did.Amos quietly exited the room leaving the three cousins alone. He needed to find Jesse and see if he was ok,finding Jesse still in the yard where he'd been with Luke staring off across the land Amos puts a hand on his shoulder."Ya gonna be ok Jesse?.......Is there anybody I can call for ya?" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Jesse shook his head lightly, just looking out over the land..."No....I'll be fine....I better start plannin' the wake and the f...funeral...."Daisy gently held Bo close, wishing that things didnt have to be this way. It was so hard to be holding Bo knowing his life was just slipping away with each second that passed. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
B.L. Davenport Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Amos grips Jesse's should supportingly "I'm sorry Jesse if there's anything else I can do for ya'll just let me know."Luke kneeled next to Bo's bed needing to be near both his cousins and if he were honest not really able to stand on his own two feet much longer. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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