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  6. The day after

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    http://www.fanfiction.net/s/9020943/1/The-day-after

    The day after Enos and Daisy (nearly) married.

    A brief (it's a one-shot) "journey" into their minds ;-)

    I've always tried to enter Daisy's mind, especially looking at her changing along the series, from a "wild" and sexy woman to a sweet and mature one (still sexy but less wild and teasing). Along her changing, her relationship with Enos changed. This is my personal view of her/their "evolution" :innocent:

  11. Edited fanfic

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    http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4194712/1/Cherry-blossom

    Another re-installement: "Cherry blossom". This is a sequel of "Snow".

    "In the cherry blossom's shade, there's no such thing as a stranger".

    The summary is a poetry of Kobayashi Issa, a japanese poet (1763-1828). In the "shade" or, you might say, beneath the canopy of enlightenment (in japanese Zen poetry, cherry blossoms are often used as symbols for the simple, natural, unfolding springtime of enlightment), there is no longer any sense of separation; nothing and no one is foreign to you; there is no such thing as a stranger.

    Uh, I know, it's a weird thing to use this kind of symbol in a DOH's fanfic, BUT.. you should know I LOVE Japan (Zen, poetry, movies, animation, culture... and spirit). :wink:

  15. Edited fanfic

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    http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3993792/1/Snow

    FINALLY I fixed the story I think I love the MOST.

    It REALLY needed to be fixed: again, as for my previous re-installed stories, I didn't change the plot not the spirit of the story, but I only improve grammar and style (and yeah... I changed some phrases here and there, adding some ones and deleting some other ones: nothing fundamental, anyway).

    I hope you enjoy to read it (for the first o second time... or even more) the same way I enjoy to write (both so many years ago and today) it.

  16. Enos Challenge!!

    in Fanfic Challenges

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    Enos getting drunk, uh?

    This idea is stuck in my head since you started to talk 'bout it.

    Maybe my next fic will start with... Enos drunk :wink:

    A funny but sweet fic.... with a lot of fluff (no shyness anymore when he's drunk, :wink:, but the little problem is he doesn't remember his actions when he sobers up).

    Maybe....

    Good ideas... here and there.

  18. Romance of the Muses

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    I usually don't allow my emotions free rein in my writing. Mainly because I don't allow them much in my day to day life either; a form of a defense mechanism due to issues of the past.

    If I allow the terror, fear, anxiousness, anger or any of the other emotions that I cause my characters/readers to feel to seep into myself then I'd never finish anything. I know that eventually I’ll have to find a balance between writing/reading the emotions and feeling them on a not so personal level but for now, I know that I’ll either be on one extreme or the other and for my own sake, I choose to be on the side that is easier on my own emotional well-being. I’d hate to end up in therapy just because I couldn’t detach myself from the writing. LOL!!

    Uh, well, using emotions as you write it doesn't mean to FEEL everything your characters feel (OMG, it'll be scaring... especially thinking of my last fic). In effect, as I write, I feel good emotions even if I'm writing something sad. :-o Strange. Maybe 'cause, even when I write something sad or painful, my attempt is to give readers (and ME) something good along the lines (balancing out the pain with something more positive here and there, for me and for the reader).

    Anyway, beside plot and grammar, I judge stories into two kind of stories:

    - stories that gave me good emotions. Good stories for me.

    - stories that gave me bad emotions or nothing. Bad stories for me.

    Why and how stories give me good or bad emotions is a mystery, anyway, LOL. It's really personal: I like some things, whereas I'm disgusted and scared away by other ones. I'm really emotional even in real life (even if I usually hide my emotions).

    Then, after the "emotional judging", I focus on plot, style, good characterization or OOCness, phsychological develop and reliability (I LOVE to dig into characters' mind; I'm the kind of reader that miss the action scenes or the plot, sometimes, to focus ONLY on the psychological thing, :innocent:, and maybe it's why I'm so empathic, sometimes), and so on.

    Anyway, I think ANY writer writes to feel something good.

  20. Romance of the Muses

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    I know when I wrote with Valerie it was like music, the story would flow from my heart and my mind. Many times when she was writing with another muse in an emotionally charged moment my body would sometimes shake. Sometimes I would cry at some of the scenes wrote. When music was combined with writing, it felt like art, like painting in my mind. My point is... it's been so long since I wrote like that. There was a time I could write such emotion on my own and it's not that I can't do it anymore, I'm sure I can. It's just that, I haven't made time for such writing and now I find a lot of my emotions are reserved for my life. I find myself reserving emotions for my husband, my parents, people at church and my job, and honestly it can be overwhelming. To release into a muse may not work the same way it did when I was a student in college. I feel like I have to have a different angle to work with Valerie, but I haven't found what that was, and I miss the intensity of writing that I use to have when I was writing in college.

    Lately, I have pondered that angle. I have even made an attempt to re-direct with Valerie and write with "Pines and Principals". I often wonder if that is a vain attempt or if I can keep going. I do have thoughts to progress the story; I just haven't 'connected all the dots' yet. Muses are speaking now whether I can listen and can produce is another thing.

    You've touched me 'bout your way to write. If you wrote that way, it's IMPOSSIBLE nothing's left.

    I don't think there's a limit to emotions: you can have emotions for your family, people at church, job... and writing too, a small niche oly for yourself. TIME is the big problem, I think.

    Writing for me is a sort of "relief's valve": it happens, sometimes, due to my job, I have no much time to write, and when I have to slow down my writing, I feel nervous, so I HAVE to find MY time. But I don't have a husband... maybe, if I had an husband, I'd find less time to write, :innocent:

    'Bout the muse: she changes. It's obvious: you grow old, and your muse change with you. It's not easy to understand the right path to follow, a good balance between the external world and the internal one.

    Lately I've had a big crisis: I started to wonder WHY I write, and if it's not all a waste of time, 'cause, yeah, I need a LOT of time to write, my free time, so I started to wonder if it was better to use my free time with something more useful. I tried to stop, but... it didn't work, my muse called me back. I tried to erase everything from my mind (ideas, plots, emotions), but it didn't work. A vain fight.

    Besides, I've understood I'm more happy when I write, I enjoy life, job and friends more when I write, whereas if I force myself to "choke" my imaginative and big inner world :roll: , thinking it's better to live totally in the outer world, I can't enjoy this outer world: I have to feed and take care of my inner world in order to live well in the outer one.

    I've never been totally and olny the outer world, :uninvolved:, and I've always felt it was weird and strange, but now I've accepted my muse, my emotional setting, and my being so dreamy and imaginative.

  21. Romance of the Muses

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    I've noticed that stories that I enjoyed 2 or 3 years ago are stories that I can't make myself read now since I find every single typo and plot-hole that I missed back when I was inexperienced.

    I understand what you're saying.

    But I'm really strict to ME too. I'm the most strict judge of myself. It's why I've decided to re-write my oldest stories... 'cause, reading them NOW, I'm... ehm... ashamed :oops: (NOT for the spirit and the plot, but for the execution, the style... and the grammar).

    Lately I had a sort of short circuit that brought me, nearly, to STOP definitively to write. Why?

    My muse wasn't finding the food she needed to.

    The more I write, the more I WANT to improve (or I hope so), analyzing and pondering everything. The more I analyze and the more I ponder on things, the more I become strict to my stories. The more I become strict to my stories, the more I become strict to other stories. The more I become strict to other stories the more I can't enjoy them. The more I can't enjoy them, the more my muse... starves, LOL. And if my muse starves... I suffer, 'cause I NEED her. But I don't know HOW to give her something good.

    Besides, I've a weird way to read a story: I focuse more on FEELINGS, on EMOTIONS; I read with my heart, first, and then with my brain. It's the same when I watch a movie, or a I read a book: it enters me through the emotional channel more than through the "rational" channel. So, the FIRST thing that hit me, in a story, is not the grammar and the plot... but the "heart" and emotions that it can give me because of characterizations, sense and feelings in it... THEN I ponder on plot, grammar (uh.. I'm italian, I can't judge english's grammar, anyway, LOL) and style. No matter how the plot is good and the grammar is correct, but if I don't FEEL anything positive, if I don't FEEL the story can give me good emotions, if I don't FEEL the story adhering to canon characters (so, breaking MY illusion, the illusion I use to write MY stories), ... I have to give up.

    Obviously, feelings and emotions are really subjective, and difficult to explain. It's more easy to explain a plot hole, or a grammar's error, even an OOCness... a LOT more difficult explain a bad feeling (because of a hyper-sensitivity, a taste, a different idea, or a lot of other things).

    And I use the emotional channel to write, too: a reader, some time ago, told me that she saw the heart in my story, the story was very sweet and showed characters' personalities of the original show, even if it needed to be proofread; well, she was RIGHT :) So, now, I'm trying to keep that heart alive, proofreading those old stories.

    My muse, NOW, has to be content with this re-writing, 'cause, actually, I can't feed her with anything else than MY illusion and MY heart.

    I'm curious to know how people read and write stories. Heart? Brain?

    How do you decide "this is good" or "this is bad"? How much are emotions important to you? Or is it only the plot and the style to attract you? When do you feel your illusion is broken?

    "Keeping alive an illusion": it's definitively what I think bring people to write and read FANfic (a different realm from "original fic").

  22. Romance of the Muses

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    Thanks i1976. I only wish that the ones that sent Pm's about her would leave reviews on the story. LOL!!

    Reviews' world is really mysterious, sometimes. :confused:

    Anyway, speaking of the muse who's brought us to write fanfic, sometimes I wonder HOW and WHY she hit me... and any of you, what she's looking for and what's her... food.

    I'm starting to understand a bit better my muse :innocent:

    I started to write fics, obviously, 'cause I'm a huge DOH's fan, but there's something more. When I like something (a book, a movie, a TV-show, an anime) I keep it alive in my mind: I did it since I was a little child, imagining a sort of "what if" after the story ended (or a "what if" along the story). Lately I've called it "keeping an illusion alive".

    But this illusion needs a "food": this food is both the original food (the original movie, book, and so on), but, along the year, I've understood that this illusion's looked for other illusions to become stronger and stronger, and other illusions means other fanfic. I started to write fanfic thanks to other fanfic and thank to other writers. I started to write fanfic hoping to have the same effect some writer had on me on other possible writer (uhm.. is it complicated? I know).

    It's why I really missed the old times here on Hazzardnet: round-robins, fanfics, challenges.... good and abundant food. Food for my muse beside the original show.

    The problem with my muse it's she's become really... ehm... selective, more and more selective along the years :roll:. The more I write, the more I've become strict 'bout plots, characterizations, adherence to the original show, and so on. And my muse too.

    Capricious muse, :censored:, sometimes I'd kill her, LOL

    But... finally, I've found a pact with my muse. I've finally understood what she needs to work properly, whereas lately I've forced her along a path which risked to destroy the illusion: "don't change the old road for a new road, 'cause you know what you lose but you don't know what you find".

    New food for her, no more rotten food, but genuine and "good old" food. If I give my muse a food she doesn't like, she risks to be poisoned... BAD thing for me.

    OK, sorry for my complicated thoughts.

    The meaning of this message? My muse needs old good food!!!!, so I re-start from the origin.

  23. Romance of the Muses

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    That's similar to the phrase that I have up on my Facebook page.

    History is the road map of where we've been. Without looking to where we've come from and how we got there, it is impossible to appreciate where we are. Without knowing where we are, how can we plan where we want to go tomorrow?

    Anyway, I have started writing a new story based on the requests that I've received from readers to learn more about my OC Kira before she met the Dukes so I am writing on that story since Coy isn't talking to me lately. I'll be posting the second chapter of A Life of Hazards over on FFN in about an hour or so.

    Great phrase. I like it.

    Sometimes, going back at our previous passions, ideas and feelings is the right path to follow. Kira is your origin (and you'll find your way thanks to her), and my first stories are my one, an origin I somehow denied, at some point :roll:.

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