i1976

BRAVO!!

Just posted chapter 25. A quick update. It seems in my last post I wrote "posted chapter 23" instead of "chapter 24" (face palm). The worst promoter of her stories, ever. I hope the quality of my stories is better than my capacity of self-promotion

Posted chapter 23.

Just posted chapter 23. A BIG surprise in this chapter.

Posted chapter 22.

Chapter 21 is up.

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/9020943/1/The-day-after The day after Enos and Daisy (nearly) married. A brief (it's a one-shot) "journey" into their minds ;-) I've always tried to enter Daisy's mind, especially looking at her changing along the series, from a "wild" and sexy woman to a sweet and mature one (still sexy but less wild and teasing). Along her changing, her relationship with Enos changed. This is my personal view of her/their "evolution"

Just posted a new chapter of "Carry that weight"

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4925170/1/Love-fever Another old story "fixed and re-installed". This is one of the stories I really enjoyed to write: I had a great fun, LOL. Simple, and I hope at the same time funny and sweet.

Just posted a new chapter of "Carry that weight".

New pictures, new fics, old fics...

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4194712/1/Cherry-blossom Another re-installement: "Cherry blossom". This is a sequel of "Snow". "In the cherry blossom's shade, there's no such thing as a stranger". The summary is a poetry of Kobayashi Issa, a japanese poet (1763-1828). In the "shade" or, you might say, beneath the canopy of enlightenment (in japanese Zen poetry, cherry blossoms are often used as symbols for the simple, natural, unfolding springtime of enlightment), there is no longer any sense of separation; nothing and no one is foreign to you; there is no such thing as a stranger. Uh, I know, it's a weird thing to use this kind of symbol in a DOH's fanfic, BUT.. you should know I LOVE Japan (Zen, poetry, movies, animation, culture... and spirit).

http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1212726/i1976# (up page, under my nick) Here's a poll to vote your favourite story, so I can understand what story I should edit, first, and what's kind of stories to write after the end of "Carry that weight" (no, it's not ended, yet, , posted a new chapter yesterday, and I hope you're enjoying it, even if so different from my previous stories). Thank you.

Chapter 18 is up.

https://www.facebook.com/#!/actorsonnyshroyer?fref=ts Look at his page on Facebook. There're a lot of GREAT pictures, of his childhood and family, beside his career. ... and a picture of Sonny... shirtless. WOW

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3993792/1/Snow FINALLY I fixed the story I think I love the MOST. It REALLY needed to be fixed: again, as for my previous re-installed stories, I didn't change the plot not the spirit of the story, but I only improve grammar and style (and yeah... I changed some phrases here and there, adding some ones and deleting some other ones: nothing fundamental, anyway). I hope you enjoy to read it (for the first o second time... or even more) the same way I enjoy to write (both so many years ago and today) it.

Enos getting drunk, uh? This idea is stuck in my head since you started to talk 'bout it. Maybe my next fic will start with... Enos drunk A funny but sweet fic.... with a lot of fluff (no shyness anymore when he's drunk, , but the little problem is he doesn't remember his actions when he sobers up). Maybe.... Good ideas... here and there.

Just posted a new chapter. I hope you enjoy it.

Uh, well, using emotions as you write it doesn't mean to FEEL everything your characters feel (OMG, it'll be scaring... especially thinking of my last fic). In effect, as I write, I feel good emotions even if I'm writing something sad. Strange. Maybe 'cause, even when I write something sad or painful, my attempt is to give readers (and ME) something good along the lines (balancing out the pain with something more positive here and there, for me and for the reader). Anyway, beside plot and grammar, I judge stories into two kind of stories: - stories that gave me good emotions. Good stories for me. - stories that gave me bad emotions or nothing. Bad stories for me. Why and how stories give me good or bad emotions is a mystery, anyway, LOL. It's really personal: I like some things, whereas I'm disgusted and scared away by other ones. I'm really emotional even in real life (even if I usually hide my emotions). Then, after the "emotional judging", I focus on plot, style, good characterization or OOCness, phsychological develop and reliability (I LOVE to dig into characters' mind; I'm the kind of reader that miss the action scenes or the plot, sometimes, to focus ONLY on the psychological thing, , and maybe it's why I'm so empathic, sometimes), and so on. Anyway, I think ANY writer writes to feel something good.

Another old, re-installed, fic. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3715487/1/Count-down

You've touched me 'bout your way to write. If you wrote that way, it's IMPOSSIBLE nothing's left. I don't think there's a limit to emotions: you can have emotions for your family, people at church, job... and writing too, a small niche oly for yourself. TIME is the big problem, I think. Writing for me is a sort of "relief's valve": it happens, sometimes, due to my job, I have no much time to write, and when I have to slow down my writing, I feel nervous, so I HAVE to find MY time. But I don't have a husband... maybe, if I had an husband, I'd find less time to write, 'Bout the muse: she changes. It's obvious: you grow old, and your muse change with you. It's not easy to understand the right path to follow, a good balance between the external world and the internal one. Lately I've had a big crisis: I started to wonder WHY I write, and if it's not all a waste of time, 'cause, yeah, I need a LOT of time to write, my free time, so I started to wonder if it was better to use my free time with something more useful. I tried to stop, but... it didn't work, my muse called me back. I tried to erase everything from my mind (ideas, plots, emotions), but it didn't work. A vain fight. Besides, I've understood I'm more happy when I write, I enjoy life, job and friends more when I write, whereas if I force myself to "choke" my imaginative and big inner world , thinking it's better to live totally in the outer world, I can't enjoy this outer world: I have to feed and take care of my inner world in order to live well in the outer one. I've never been totally and olny the outer world, , and I've always felt it was weird and strange, but now I've accepted my muse, my emotional setting, and my being so dreamy and imaginative.

I've noticed that stories that I enjoyed 2 or 3 years ago are stories that I can't make myself read now since I find every single typo and plot-hole that I missed back when I was inexperienced. I understand what you're saying. But I'm really strict to ME too. I'm the most strict judge of myself. It's why I've decided to re-write my oldest stories... 'cause, reading them NOW, I'm... ehm... ashamed (NOT for the spirit and the plot, but for the execution, the style... and the grammar). Lately I had a sort of short circuit that brought me, nearly, to STOP definitively to write. Why? My muse wasn't finding the food she needed to. The more I write, the more I WANT to improve (or I hope so), analyzing and pondering everything. The more I analyze and the more I ponder on things, the more I become strict to my stories. The more I become strict to my stories, the more I become strict to other stories. The more I become strict to other stories the more I can't enjoy them. The more I can't enjoy them, the more my muse... starves, LOL. And if my muse starves... I suffer, 'cause I NEED her. But I don't know HOW to give her something good. Besides, I've a weird way to read a story: I focuse more on FEELINGS, on EMOTIONS; I read with my heart, first, and then with my brain. It's the same when I watch a movie, or a I read a book: it enters me through the emotional channel more than through the "rational" channel. So, the FIRST thing that hit me, in a story, is not the grammar and the plot... but the "heart" and emotions that it can give me because of characterizations, sense and feelings in it... THEN I ponder on plot, grammar (uh.. I'm italian, I can't judge english's grammar, anyway, LOL) and style. No matter how the plot is good and the grammar is correct, but if I don't FEEL anything positive, if I don't FEEL the story can give me good emotions, if I don't FEEL the story adhering to canon characters (so, breaking MY illusion, the illusion I use to write MY stories), ... I have to give up. Obviously, feelings and emotions are really subjective, and difficult to explain. It's more easy to explain a plot hole, or a grammar's error, even an OOCness... a LOT more difficult explain a bad feeling (because of a hyper-sensitivity, a taste, a different idea, or a lot of other things). And I use the emotional channel to write, too: a reader, some time ago, told me that she saw the heart in my story, the story was very sweet and showed characters' personalities of the original show, even if it needed to be proofread; well, she was RIGHT So, now, I'm trying to keep that heart alive, proofreading those old stories. My muse, NOW, has to be content with this re-writing, 'cause, actually, I can't feed her with anything else than MY illusion and MY heart. I'm curious to know how people read and write stories. Heart? Brain? How do you decide "this is good" or "this is bad"? How much are emotions important to you? Or is it only the plot and the style to attract you? When do you feel your illusion is broken? "Keeping alive an illusion": it's definitively what I think bring people to write and read FANfic (a different realm from "original fic").

Reviews' world is really mysterious, sometimes. Anyway, speaking of the muse who's brought us to write fanfic, sometimes I wonder HOW and WHY she hit me... and any of you, what she's looking for and what's her... food. I'm starting to understand a bit better my muse I started to write fics, obviously, 'cause I'm a huge DOH's fan, but there's something more. When I like something (a book, a movie, a TV-show, an anime) I keep it alive in my mind: I did it since I was a little child, imagining a sort of "what if" after the story ended (or a "what if" along the story). Lately I've called it "keeping an illusion alive". But this illusion needs a "food": this food is both the original food (the original movie, book, and so on), but, along the year, I've understood that this illusion's looked for other illusions to become stronger and stronger, and other illusions means other fanfic. I started to write fanfic thanks to other fanfic and thank to other writers. I started to write fanfic hoping to have the same effect some writer had on me on other possible writer (uhm.. is it complicated? I know). It's why I really missed the old times here on Hazzardnet: round-robins, fanfics, challenges.... good and abundant food. Food for my muse beside the original show. The problem with my muse it's she's become really... ehm... selective, more and more selective along the years . The more I write, the more I've become strict 'bout plots, characterizations, adherence to the original show, and so on. And my muse too. Capricious muse, , sometimes I'd kill her, LOL But... finally, I've found a pact with my muse. I've finally understood what she needs to work properly, whereas lately I've forced her along a path which risked to destroy the illusion: "don't change the old road for a new road, 'cause you know what you lose but you don't know what you find". New food for her, no more rotten food, but genuine and "good old" food. If I give my muse a food she doesn't like, she risks to be poisoned... BAD thing for me. OK, sorry for my complicated thoughts. The meaning of this message? My muse needs old good food!!!!, so I re-start from the origin.

Great phrase. I like it. Sometimes, going back at our previous passions, ideas and feelings is the right path to follow. Kira is your origin (and you'll find your way thanks to her), and my first stories are my one, an origin I somehow denied, at some point .

Ok, I promise to be a bit less lazy (or I hope so). Just posted a new chapter (chapter 16). Go, and enjoy it.