BoJamesDuke

Bo rubbed his forehead lightly, it was starting to hurt from the stress of everything and all he wanted to do was return to how things were before. On some levels, he really wished he hadn't gotten involved at all.

Bo sighed heavily and pulled away returning to his laying down position in the grass.

"So what am I gonna do Uncle Jesse?" Bo asked desperatly.

Bo sighed and hugged his Uncle back, shaking his head. "Yeah but I can't make this choice...I don't want to take Troy on as my own son...I want to be his friend an' I want ta help him...I want ta help him so much...but I can't have him as..as my son..."

"I already feel trapped and I don't like it Uncle Jesse..." Bo added miserably, throwing an arm over his eyes.

"The fact that that kid is attatched to me now and if I just up an' leave then he's gonna do somethin' stupid like try an' kill himself...he appeals to me cause he's an orphan like me...his mama abandoned him...he ain't got no one else an' I know what its like ta feel that way...plus you an' Luke an' Daisy...I ain't ready ta leave Hazzard yet...I just want to know I got the option of that future...an' I won't have it if I got Troy...but at the same time I can't just up an' leave him!"

"I want to carry on the way I was, to go back to the NASCAR circuit and really try and make it big...I want to be able to live my life without a kid running around after me!" Bo said a little testily. He was tired after his long day and he was frustrated at how things were turning out with Troy.

Bo shrugged. "I want him to be happy!"

Bo shook his head harder, putting his hands over his eyes. "I'm in it deep..."

"I know that but how d'ya look at a kid who ain't only countin' on ya but is also sicker than a baby bird that fell out its nest and say no?!" Bo exclaimed with a cry.

Bo shook his head, flopping back down in the hay again. "No I don't! I just wish he wouldn't rely on me so much...I had to promise to go back there again tomorrow to make him sleep! I'm worried he's gonna run off an' do somethin' stupid if I don't go..."

Bo sighed and shook his head. "I don't remember...but it definitly weren't yes..."

Bo raised his eyebrows, looking away. "Ain't none of them ever asked me to adopt em 'afore."

Bo frowned and looked to Jesse "What d'ya mean?"

Bo shook his head, sitting up more out of respect than because he wanted to. "No...ain't nothin' else to talk about.."

Bo sighed deeply and nodded. "Guess so..."

Bo sighed a little as he played with the towel in his hands...how did his Uncle know that he hadn't really gone for a shower...he bet Jesse hadn't even checked the bathroom either. "Yeah m'up here..."

Jesse smiled and ran a hand through the dark curls, nodding softly. "Good boy..." Before leaving the room to go see if he could help Bo any.

"Now...you lay down an' get some more rest...." Jesse said gently, helping Luke to lay back down.

"I know ya do son...but there are some things a man's gotta do for himself...its about time Bo realised that there are somethings he can't let everyone else sort out for him...he's gotta grow up an' learn some responsibility..." He said gently,

"Nothin' Luke...'cept maybe tell him that he didn't have to do anything and help him find a way out of the rutt he's hit..." Jesse said softly, shaking his head. "I don't expect that from you Luke and he doesn't really...he's just confused..."

Bo eventually stood up and grabbed his towel off where it hung on the bottom of his bed. "I'm going for a shower..." He mumbled as he left the room, Jesse watching him go all the way with a small sigh.

Bo sighed and shook his head, looking up at the ceiling. Truth was, he didn't want that responsibilty yet....he didn't want to have to settle down and cool his ways any...he didn't want to go out with a girl and have to tell them that he had a kid...Luke didn't care, he thought the world of Jaime...but Bo just couldn't do that.

Bo sighed and finally looked at Luke. "I can't adopt him...I barely even know the kid and already he's attatched to me like he's known me all his life. And anyway, with the life I lead with the skirt chasin', the fast drivin...i'm not a suitable role model for him...I can't give that life up yet, i'm not ready to and i'm not ready to have someone relying on me as much as he would do...I mean look how much he's relying on me now...and look how i'm handling it..."

"Because I can't! I can't give him what he wants from me! I'm not a father Luke!" Bo protested quietly but exclaiming all the same, never bringing his head up