BoJamesDuke Posted September 12, 2008 Report Share Posted September 12, 2008 Daisy bit her lip and stepped more into the room, sitting next to him and hesitantly but gently putting a hand on his knee."How you doin' Luke..." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 12, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 12, 2008 Luke shrugged a little. "Alright I guess...." He didn't feel like he should even be talking about himself.... not when Bo was in the shape he was. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 13, 2008 Report Share Posted September 13, 2008 Daisy nodded a little, having expected some sort of closed off response...on the one hand it was good because it was a typical Luke answer...but then again with all the talking he should have already been doing with Sara as Bo reported...shouldn't he be a little more open? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 13, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 13, 2008 Luke sighed. "Just worried," he continued. He didn't say what he was worried about. It didn't much matter anyway. Daisy could see for herself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 13, 2008 Report Share Posted September 13, 2008 Daisy looked to him again before looking to Bo, nodding a little."Well....look at it this way....least he didn't get to attempt driving home in his state...which is what he was gonna do.." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 13, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 13, 2008 "I suppose," came his soft answer his eyes not wavering off of Bo. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Daisy nodded a little, falling silent. For one of the first times in her life, she didn\'t know what to say to her older cousin. She didn\'t know what would upset him, what would make him smile....she missed him...she missed both her cousins. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 "I never meant...to hurt anyone," said Luke softly. He knew it wasn't his fault. he knew both his cousins would tell him that should he suggest it. But at the same time, as he stared at Bo, he couldn't help but feel a bit responsible. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 \"I know Luke...and you didn\'t hurt Bo, its his own fault really for not taking care of himself...but then again I can see why he couldn\'t sleep or anything. You can\'t help dealing with your greif the way you are, its how its happened and there\'s nothing we can do about the past....we just need to work on the future and getting you better...so things can...well get back to something that we can call normal...\"She knew that it could never be the same as when Jesse was around, but maybe they could carry on a life for their Uncle that would make him proud from wherever he was watching them from. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke sighed nodding a little. Daisy's soft words offered comfort and confirmed what he knew in his heart. Nonetheless, he felt that he should have been stronger, should have dealt with things better. He was thinking more clearly now, but the pain was still present. The feelings of loss still heavy on his heart. He had realized through conversation with Sara that, in reality, he wasn't just mourning the loss of Jesse. He was mourning for his parents, his friends he had lost in the war, the carefree childhood he should have experienced, mourning the innocence he had lost in the bloody war,and most of all, he mourned for the loss of himself. He really didn't know who he was...what his purpose was anymore. Without his uncle guiding him, he felt like a ship out in a boat without oars tossing about on a raging sea...he desperately needed to find an anchor. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Daisy looked to Luke as he spoke, noticing something different in his eyes. For a long time, those eyes had expressed pain and surprisingly a loss of understanding. But now...there was something there...a kind of peace that showed that Luke was understanding something about himself...something he could focus on and try and do something about. That was when Luke was most at his settled, when he knew what the problem was and was trying to find a solution. It was what he excelled in....she was just surprised that finally after so many years...he had found the problem he had been searching for.\"Sara...Sara\'s really helped you hasn\'t she...really...made you think...\" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke nodded. "Yeah...she has...I mean...I guess...I knew the problem...I just...couldn't put a name to it...an..." *he bit his tongue trying to express himself in words, a thing he had always struggled with. "Til I named it...I...I couldn't start to fight it... I..it's not just one thing...it's a lot...an'...an' I can't...just get over it...wish I could...it's gonna take time...but...I feel like...I...I at least know the enemy now...you know?" he said. Words never came easy for him; he was a thinker not a speaker. Sara had helped him to see that all those years of pain bottled up was partially due to that- he had tried to keep everything inside...instead of speaking it out and dealing with it. Now he was trying to make a conscious effort to respond....even to the littlest things. It might not look like much to anyone else, but it was a milestone for Luke. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Daisy smiled a little, recognising the big change and the effort Luke had taken to explain that. It was amazing how much change one person could make....and Sara although having worked with Luke for only a few days...boy was she changing things. Daisy had always thought that it would take that one special person to change Luke for the better after he came back from Nam...and Luke may not see it...but Daisy could definitly see a possible connection between the two.\"Wow...she must be really good at what she does to get you this far in just a couple of days...your doing so well Luke...and yeah I understand what ya mean...its just unusual to hear it coming from you...\" She said with a small giggle. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke nodded a little. "She's a good person...I...I don't really know...how she does it...but...I can talk to her...say...say things...I never said to anyone before...not...not even Bo..." He looked down as if a little ashamed at that. "I don't even know why..." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Daisy nodded a little. \" Probably because you dont know her...so your not afraid of her judging you or telling everyone what your saying or scaring her off...she\'s talked to people like you and she understands what you are saying and going through...she understands you when you dont understand yourself and help you to...\" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke shrugged. "Guess so." He wasn't sure really. He wasn't sure of much, except the fact that it now wasn't a question of if he'd be better but when. "She...she believes I can do this...even...even if I don't believe in myself," he added quietly. "Guess that's the biggest thing." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 \"She believes in you...and I take it you believe in her too...cause if you didn\'t then you wouldn\'t be listening to what she\'s saying....you\'ve got a lot of trust in each other for two people who only met a few days ago...\" Daisy noticed softly. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke swallowed. "Yeah...I...I suppose we do..." he answered softly. "Guess...I didn't think of it that way..." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 \"You got enough t\'think about without thinking about that too...I just pointed it out cause normally you wouldn\'t trust any stranger as quick as ya have her...s\'a big step for ya and i\'m proud of ya...\" Daisy said softly. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 "Thanks Daisy..." he answered softly, wishing Bo would wake and tell him the same thing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Daisy nodded and rubbed his back gently, knowing what the unspoken words were that finished Luke\'s sentence in his mind, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke turned back to Bo. He looked so tired. "I'm scared Daisy...I...I don't wanna lose him too," he admitted in a rare admittance of fear. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 \"Luke...your not gonna lose him...if god\'s plan was for you to lose him now he would have gotten in the car and driven home and had a fatal accident on the way...something up there prevented that...\" She reasoned gently, trying to prove to him also that God didn\'t always favour taking the ones Luke loved away from him. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyMaeDuke Posted September 14, 2008 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2008 Luke nodded a little, knowing she was right. But still, seeing Bo like that...well, it didn't help ease his troubled mind any. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BoJamesDuke Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 Daisy smiled softly and gave Luke a gentle hug, knowing that what he really needed was for Bo to wake up and tell him he was going to be fine. Though with the exhaustion and now the concussion that was likely going to take a while. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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