BoJamesDuke

\"Luke...your not gonna lose him...if god\'s plan was for you to lose him now he would have gotten in the car and driven home and had a fatal accident on the way...something up there prevented that...\" She reasoned gently, trying to prove to him also that God didn\'t always favour taking the ones Luke loved away from him.

Ok sorry guys, the quote was meant to be started over the weekend but as Daisy knows, my dad screwed our internet up so i\'ve lost my wireless connection. I know have to plug my laptop into the router which is in my mum;s bedroom so I can only go on when she says now *sighs* I will definitly be on tomorrow cause she\'s out mwahahaha, so it WILL BE POSTED THEN!!! lol Keep your eyes peeled!

Daisy nodded and rubbed his back gently, knowing what the unspoken words were that finished Luke\'s sentence in his mind,

Bo nodded a liitle before taking her hand gently. \"We best get back down there or everyones gonna wonder where we are...\"

\"You got enough t\'think about without thinking about that too...I just pointed it out cause normally you wouldn\'t trust any stranger as quick as ya have her...s\'a big step for ya and i\'m proud of ya...\" Daisy said softly.

Bo sighed and hung his head, putting his hands over his eyes. He was getting more and more frustrated and irritated with himself and now he\'d just near snapped at Sammy too. \"Sammy i\'m sorry..\"

\"She believes in you...and I take it you believe in her too...cause if you didn\'t then you wouldn\'t be listening to what she\'s saying....you\'ve got a lot of trust in each other for two people who only met a few days ago...\" Daisy noticed softly.

Daisy nodded a little. \" Probably because you dont know her...so your not afraid of her judging you or telling everyone what your saying or scaring her off...she\'s talked to people like you and she understands what you are saying and going through...she understands you when you dont understand yourself and help you to...\"

\"It aint that I dont try Sammy, I do, its just hard. I cant just switch off like a lightbulb...\" He replied back exasperated.

\"I cant sleep properly...\" He admitted gently. \"I lay there and everything just speeds through my head...\"

\"Catching up with Daisy an\' how she\'s doing I suppose...wont be long before TJ and Abi are awake either I dont doubt...\" He replied, scrubbing a hand down his face.

Daisy smiled a little, recognising the big change and the effort Luke had taken to explain that. It was amazing how much change one person could make....and Sara although having worked with Luke for only a few days...boy was she changing things. Daisy had always thought that it would take that one special person to change Luke for the better after he came back from Nam...and Luke may not see it...but Daisy could definitly see a possible connection between the two. \"Wow...she must be really good at what she does to get you this far in just a couple of days...your doing so well Luke...and yeah I understand what ya mean...its just unusual to hear it coming from you...\" She said with a small giggle.

Bo sighed as Sammy kept on making his excuse for him...he was just too tired and stressed to think about anything. \"Are you sure your ok making dinner tonight?\"

\"I\'m not totally not to blame Sammy....my tempers been way to close to the surface recently and...I just keep lashing out at anyone who so much as brushes against it the wrong way...\" Bo admitted gently, with a soft sigh.

Daisy looked to Luke as he spoke, noticing something different in his eyes. For a long time, those eyes had expressed pain and surprisingly a loss of understanding. But now...there was something there...a kind of peace that showed that Luke was understanding something about himself...something he could focus on and try and do something about. That was when Luke was most at his settled, when he knew what the problem was and was trying to find a solution. It was what he excelled in....she was just surprised that finally after so many years...he had found the problem he had been searching for. \"Sara...Sara\'s really helped you hasn\'t she...really...made you think...\"

Bo sighed, shaking his head, knowing he had been one of the causes of the reunion getting off to a bad start. \"M\'sorry Sammy...\"

\"I know Luke...and you didn\'t hurt Bo, its his own fault really for not taking care of himself...but then again I can see why he couldn\'t sleep or anything. You can\'t help dealing with your greif the way you are, its how its happened and there\'s nothing we can do about the past....we just need to work on the future and getting you better...so things can...well get back to something that we can call normal...\" She knew that it could never be the same as when Jesse was around, but maybe they could carry on a life for their Uncle that would make him proud from wherever he was watching them from.

Daisy nodded a little, falling silent. For one of the first times in her life, she didn\'t know what to say to her older cousin. She didn\'t know what would upset him, what would make him smile....she missed him...she missed both her cousins.

Bo nodded a little, thankful for that as he held his wife close. Even when they were seperated only for a few hours he missed her and his children...going to NASCAR and earning the money the family needed...although fun, his dream, what he\'d always wanted to do....it was torture for him to be away.

"I love you too Sammy...I dont know where i'd be right now without ya..." He said quietly.

Bo closed his eyes again as she did, swallowing gently as he held his wife and possible unborn child close, rocking her a little.

Daisy looked to him again before looking to Bo, nodding a little. "Well....look at it this way....least he didn't get to attempt driving home in his state...which is what he was gonna do.."

"Well....we dont know for certain yet and...Sammy after Sara I can't take any chances....I dont know how Luke's doing it but if I lost you there's no way I could keep on goin'...I just couldn't..." He admitted softly, always having been the more emotional of the two. He suspected because of Luke's always tough resiliance to giving up and showing emotion, it had helped him greatly through everything....Bo didn't have that power one iota.

Daisy nodded a little, having expected some sort of closed off response...on the one hand it was good because it was a typical Luke answer...but then again with all the talking he should have already been doing with Sara as Bo reported...shouldn't he be a little more open?

Bo sighed softly as she did that, hanging his head a moment before gently pulling away and taking her hands in his own. "I can't do that Sammy...I got too much to worry about...and you shouldn't be doing this anyway..."